It’s only been a week at the school and I’m already sore, emotionally challenged and damn scared/excited to see what Pig Iron has me to undertake next. We’ve already started creating ensemble pieces and learning how to manipulate our bodies to create various characters. And yes, that includes using acrobatics such as headstands, jumping onto other bodies, and semi-flying (notice the word, “semi,” which implies falling). The ingenious part of their teaching I’ve discovered is that these risks are all rooted in the physical body and voice. So by experimenting with gestures and sounds, I’m always able to get somewhere. In other words, being just emotional and getting caught up with what I’m feeling won’t get me what I want unless I’m doing something SPECIFIC. Being precise actually involves taking a risk because you’re bringing clarity to what you want and making the effort to get it. Overall, I’m glad that they ask me to take uncomfortable risks: most of the time, it involves being uncomfortable physically or rather trying something physically foreign to you. It’s another way of “feeling” during your performance in that it’s a physical process rather than simply a mental one. Of course, one begins with a huge desire or want, which then propels action and tactics. It’s important to note, however, that this motion is outward rather than inward, which in my mind involves locking yourself in a dark room wallowing in misery before performance. Honestly, who wants that? I’d rather look at my performance as if it were a game plan, a course of action and be pumped about it before GO time!

On another note, I’m also learning a lot about just being present, just breathing and being aware of the space before me. It’s great to apply this to life as I’ve discovered (and somehow keep forgetting) that what’s real is what’s occurring in the present, not in the future or past. You may spend all your time dwelling in the past/future, but the reality of it is that right now you’re probably waiting at the bus stop with a screaming siren passing you by. Or worse, you may be on stage with an audience, who happens to be ALWAYS on the brink of boredom. In conclusion, pay damn attention to what you’re doing and people will pay damn attention to you.